Creating Our Realities

It was an ordeal to get to the ten post mark, but here it goes . . .

I think people create their own realities. People can force themselves into thinking one way or another and be completely convinced that their perception is the truth.

This is often proved when I think back on decisions that I've made; I don't understand the logic behind my decisions, whether physical actions or perception-based, but, at the time, they were natural for me to make. My perspective was unquestionably accurate. But now that I have distance from that mindset, I want to kick myself for making them.

So, this means that we build our reality. We can convince ourselves that the way we perceive things is correct, even if later we realize it wasn't.

For instance, when my brother consistently uses drugs, he becomes a completely different person who I do not identify with, nor feel is my brother. When in wilderness (i.e., rehab), he wrote us letters and, with each letter we received, it seemed that he was improving and returning to his old self. Even though I was hesitant to let him back in my life, my entire family was convinced that he was getting better, that everything would be fine, we could all stop worrying. By seeing this progress, we believed that he was returning to who he was.

But this reality was shattered by his decision to quit wilderness and start using again (i.e., he really had made no progress).

And it scared the shit out of me that something like that could happen. Even when I was so convinced that something was true and that my perception was accurate, my reality could be destroyed.

It's frightening.

It's like the Matrix.

Think about it.

Loves,
Danya