In conjunction with my last post regarding wasting time, I decided to try to start figuring my shit out. I realized my priorities are warped. I obsess over things that don't matter--wasting hours upon hours mindlessly surfing the internet, playing the game over boys who are maybe interested in me--because I have no clue what I want to do.
Well, in some respects that's true.
More specifically, I don't know what I want to fill my time with. I don't know what I want to do in the moments when I'm not stressed about homework or goofing off with friends. I want to be productive, but I don't know what I want to accomplish in the smaller scheme of things--not necessarily talking about in the perspective of my life, rather, just my day-to-day accomplishments.
So, taking inspiration from the lovely Miss Elsie of A Beautiful Mess, I made a list of things I want to do before I turn nineteen. Some are rather silly, others more serious, but they are all things I can fill my time doing. They are all things that will make me happy. And, because I am sick and tired of wasting my time obsessing over playing the game, I consciously excluded any goal about boys or relationships. Because, in the end, I'd rather spend my time focusing on defining who I am and who I want to be and what I want, rather than on getting a boyfriend.
Loves,
Danya
P.S. Sorry if this isn't the most coherent post. It's one in the morning and I'm exhausted and I'm trying to update every other day and stay on that schedule, but I procrastinated today and waited until the last minute. Sorry! (For whoever's reading this, if anyone.) Goodnight.
P.P.S. I'd love to know what you'd like to accomplish before your next birthday! Leave your list (or a link to your list) in the comments.
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